Thursday, July 28, 2011


Sewing & crafting are fun! I find it truly satisfying to make beautiful things out of basically nothing. I learn my first needle trick from my late grandmother. She taught me how to tread needles. I progress from there by learning from my mom how to sew loose buttons.

Next I learnt how to knit using crochet hook at a children camp organized by my church. I was so excited to be able to knit cute little blouses for my dolls and quickly applied the same technique learned to make little hats & shoes for my dolls. Cross stitch comes naturally right after that and I should thank my aunts for getting me interested in it.

Eventually I set my eyes on sewing. I sew two pieces of blue and red fabrics together to make my first pillow case. Later I even tried to sew a princess outfit for a custom party but got my blouse wrong. The only success that came out from that attempt was a modified skirt with lace for my so called princess look. Sigh… Not long after that I have my eyes set on sewing little pouch and bags with zippers.

On the other hand, while attending to my aunt & uncle’s handicraft shop in Miri, I took up jewellery making as well. I’m proud to say that I know the basic know how to create my own earrings, bracelets and necklaces. Manage even to sold some of it to my friends and colleagues. But mostly I gave them away as birthday gifts.

These were custom made for a friend.

Finally, my latest project is on quilting. I took an interest in quilting many years ago when I saw a lady sewing fabrics onto cut out pieces of cigarette boxes while tending to her shop. Eventually, I could see how she sews those pieces together to create some beautiful patterns on her quilt. Over time, I have come up with my own version of quilting. Instead of sewing pieces of fabrics onto cut out square or hexagon manila cards, I chose to staple it just for the sake of making everything easier. However, I have to be extra careful on the fabrics that I chose since I don’t want to ruin it with two ugly holes after I remove the staple. The rest are piece of cake, I just joined all the pieces randomly or I arrange it to come up with different shapes and patterns. As I sew the pieces together, I would make sure that all the sides are lined up nicely.

I would like to point out that I am not perfect when it comes to sewing and crafting. However, I do believe when there is a will, there’s going to be a way. Once you have your mind on something that you would like to do, put your heart into it. You would never regret that decision.

The irony is that though I like sewing so much, I am clueless around sewing machine. Haha… Regrettably only recently I learned to use youtubes for sewing & crafting tips and tutorials. The world of sewing & crafting are now at my finger tips. So, what’s next?

Sunday, May 1, 2011



I read of a man who stood to speak
at the funeral of a friend
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
from the beginning, to the end

He noted that first came her date of birth
and spoke the following date with tears
But he said what mattered most of all
was the "dash" between those years

For the dash represents all the time
that she spent alive on earth
And now only those who loved her know
what that little line is worth

For it matters not, how much we own
the cars, the house, the cash
What matters is how we live and love
and how we spend the dash

So think about this long and hard
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left
that can still be rearranged

If we could just slow down enough
to consider what's true and real
And always try to understand
the way other people feel
And be less quick to anger
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
like we've never loved before

If we treat each other with respect
and more often wear a smile
Remembering that this special dash
might only last a little while

So, when your eulogy's being read
with your life's actions to rehash
Would you be proud of the things they say
about how you spent your dash?

Dearest Sue,

I quote this poem in memory of you.. Of all the years that I have known you, I can say that you have lived your dash well. You'll be deeply missed by your family, friends, students and me. May your soul rest in peace..


Friday, December 31, 2010

SAYONARA 2010.. ALOHA 2011!

It's 31st December 2010 already? Gosh.. Time really does fly by really fast doesn't it? As I leave 2010 behind and stepping into a new year 2011, I ponder upon all the blessings that God has given to me throughout this year.

Lord, to make things easier for You, here's a list of my thanks and gratitudes for all the things that you have done for me this year:
1. Thank you for keeping me healthy this year with no major illness. And even when those around me were down with the flu bugs, you have protected me under Your wings.

2. Thank you for the roof over my head and the food on my table and the clothes on my body. Not once did You let me go hungry without food, and go cold without shelter and warm clothings. In fact, You have blessed me more that what I needed. Because of that, I'll continue to trust You with all my needs in this coming new year.

3. Thank you for my family and friends that are always there for me at the right moment when I needed them the most. Thank you for their loves, encouragements and friendships. Bless them Father as You have blessed me. Let the blessings flow into their lives as well.

4. Thank you for my past, my present and my future. You have guided me along the way. I grateful for my past, joyful in my present and hopeful of my future.

5. Most of all, thank you for bringing me this far in my life. I could not have done it without You. Can't wait to see what You have in store for me this coming 2011. May I continue to be a vessel of blessing to others and may Your will be done in my life. Amen!

Monday, September 20, 2010


In life, there are many things that we have to learn to let go. We have to let go of situations, things, memories, people and even ourselves.

It's easy to form an attachment to people and things. When you've formed an attachment to people and things, it can be a very painful experience and feeling when you realized that it's time to let go. Even the mere thought of not having that person or thing in your life just squeezes your heart in pain.

However, there are times where you or that person has changed to the extent that it's necessary to let go of the relationship or friendship, so that each of you can fulfill your life path.

Letting go of your past and memories are also extremely hard. Even though old memories can be tormenting, yet you might hold on to the past and refuse to move forward. However, by refusing to let go of the painful past, it'll serve as a roadblock to love.

Letting go of your old self and the process of letting the new you emerge can be one of the scariest experiences in your life. But by leaving behind your old self and taking a leap of faith into the unknown, it might just reveal what you are truly capable of becoming.

May you find some inspiration from this devotion that I read this morning on that God has used to comfort me and give me strength to move on with my life and not to be stuck with my past. Thank you Father for Your understanding and for being there when I needed someone to talk to and a shoulder to cry on. Thank you Lord for Your everlasting LOVE... As I let go of my past and allow my wounds to heal, let Your love continue to flow in me and nourish me until the day I can finally say: Lord, I'm heal!


Bacaan : Filipi 3:4-14

Tidak sedikit orang yang secara fisik hidup pada masa sekarang, tetapi hati dan pikirannya masih berada pada masa lalu. Seorang gadis yang terus terkenang dengan pacar lamanya, sehingga ia tidak bisa bahagia dengan pacarnya yang sekarang. Seorang pemuda yang terus dikejar penyesalan karena pada masa lalu ia pernah melakukan tindakan sangat tercela. Sungguh, betapa tidak nyamannya hidup dalam "penjara masa lalu". Sangat menyesakkan.

Secara manusiawi, Rasul Paulus punya "alasan" untuk terus menyesali masa lalunya. Ia pernah menjadi penganiaya orang kristiani (Kisah Para Rasul 9:1, 2). Lalu ia bertobat dan menjadi seorang pekabar Injil yang gigih dan teguh. Namun, apa yang ia alami kemudian? Tidak melulu kegembiraan dan kemudahan, sebaliknya tidak sedikit bahaya dan penganiayaan (2 Korintus 11: 23-26).

Namun, Rasul Paulus tidak membiarkan dirinya terjebak dalam penjara masa lalu. Ia melupakan segala kepahitan dan penyesalan akan masa lalunya. Dan, mengarahkan diri kepada apa yang di hadapannya, kepada visi hidupnya. Itulah sebabnya ia selalu tegar dan teguh; pun di tengah tantangan dan hambatan yang menerpanya.

Betapa pun masa lalu yang telah kita alami-manis atau pahit-semuanya sudah berlalu. Dan, hidup kita tidak pernah surut ke belakang. Masa lalu baik untuk kita jadikan cermin, tetapi akan tidak baik kalau terus-menerus kita "pegang". Sebuah ungkapan bijak: Kemarin adalah kenangan, esok adalah misteri, hari ini adalah kenyataan --AYA


Tuesday, August 24, 2010


Officially, it has been 55 days since I arrived here in Shah Alam. Wait a minute.. Make it 52 days. Just came back from Kuching 2 days ago. Was in Kuching from 20th to 22nd August 2010 for Chiwi Ngang & Ervina Wilton's wedding. Hahaha..

The transition from Kuching to Shah Alam had been a smooth one. But along the way, I can't say that I didn't miss everyone back in Sarawak. I was damn homesick most of the time even up till now. The worst part was to face everything alone without those dear to me by my side. But as the saying goes, one has to move on with his/her life...

I'm now in my 2nd month here. It felt weird driving here at first. I can't believe I'm back! I thought I had enough of my 6 years stay in Shah Alam from 2000-2006. To think that I'm here again is just not what I have expected. God really works in mysterious ways but I do believe all these happen for a reason and I can't wait for God to reveal His plan to me. Soon I hope... :)

I had managed to visit & catch up with almost everyone who are still living around here - friends & families alike. Glad to see that everyone is doing really well. I had even managed to attend a reunion, hen's party, sports day, engagement, convocation, open day, career day etc. Fuh! My schedule are packed like a can of sardines from the moment I arrived up till now - which is great of course (I'm not complaining..).

My postgraduate study is doing well too (*happy mode*). God has been gracious to me. He sent two wonderful friends (Jessica Jimmy & Khairiah Hameed) as my companion in class. All my classes are at 6:30-9:30pm Monday to Wednesday. Tiring but it's worth it... As the Malay saying goes "Bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian". Two of my lecturers were my former lecturers. It's great to have them back as my lecturers this semester. :)

Oh.. By the way, I'm going on well deserved vacation with Cath & Emma in June next year. We're going to Bandung for spa treatment & of course shopping! What a great way to celebrate my 30th birthday. Can't wait.. Haha..

Well, having said all that, hope that everything will work out for me. The future is still uncertain but with God walking beside me, whom shall I fear? God, I hold on to Your promises & let You lead my way. You're in control of my life... Amen!

Sunday, June 13, 2010


As I write this, I'm 17 days away from departure. I'm moving back to Shah Alam to proceed with my postgraduate study after spending 3 years working here in Kuching.

3 years might seem like a short period of time for some but for me it has been 3 great years of work and ministries. I have met many great friends along the way and treasure many great memories of the things that we did and the fun that we had. I never thought I would move away from here. My plan was to settle down here in Kuching but God has a better plan..

I was surfing the net one day and suddenly decided to click on the UiTM's official website just for fun. Because of that innocent click, I noted that there's an ad for postgraduate study for the July intake. This happened sometime in April. This then trigger an immense desire to further my study in me but I was scared at the prospect of it. Furthermore, I was in my comfort zone - I have a job that I enjoy doing, I was also very much involved in the ministries here, I have great friends and companionship, I have a great place to stay.. In short life was good but God has a better plan..

I was then invited by my dear friend Jaime Chan to watch the movie 'Letter to Juliet'. The word 'what if..' used in the movie eventually led me to apply for the postgraduate ad that I saw a few weeks back. One thing led to another and my application was accepted!

Moving is hard but try moving with short notice given. But God has been good to me.. As I said before, He has a plan.. and because of that, He has opened so many doors for me in order for me to be able to leave with a peaceful mind. Money, job transfer arrangement and the rest were all given to me without me prompting. God really has a better plan for me..

Wish I could share more but my eyes are heavy now. Haha.. Will update again before I leave. God bless..

Saturday, March 6, 2010


A beautiful song by Janet Pascal. Discovered her after my dad asked whether I could find Bill Gaither's songs online. In case you are wondering, yup.. I never heard of him before either.. Way before our time those guys but I LOVE them!! Suddenly found that I can't get enough of them. Wondering where to find their CDs? Hmm.. MPH has them perhaps. Might have to pre-order though.

Anyway, it's another new year! Gosh, time really gone by really fast these days. I know, I know.. It's March already, 3 months into the new year. Haven't got around to update my blog sooner. Too much facebooking if you tell me. lol

You might be wondering what I've been up to. Well, nothing much so far. Spent my Christmas holidays in Miri. Then went back to Bintulu for New Year. In fact, I drove all the way from Miri to Bintulu on my own. Was surprise Mom didn't fuss much. Maybe she has finally realised that her little girl has grown up. Haha..

I was back in Kuching on the 3rd of January 2010. The next day until today, I have been burying myself in tonnes of work. Teaching preparation, marking quizzes and assignments, setting exams papers, marking exam papers, administrative work blah, blah, blah.. As silly as it sounds, I found myself suddenly stepping into the month of March without really know I got there. I must have used the bullet train. Yikes!..

Anyway, in the middle of these mess, I still managed to spend some quality time with my parents & my little (he's going to kill me if he ever read this) brother during Chinese New Year holiday. Was glad that they came. Oh, and Kaka too (our pet squirrel). He came all the way to Kuching and even befriended Mikey (my adorable-small head-big tummy-long tail cat - a.k.a. ugly cat according to my mom). Such a lucky squirrel..

My younger sis, Khonnie, is expecting her first child next month. Imagine that! I'm going to be an aunt soon (It makes me sound old don't you think?). It also trigger a 'when-is-your-turn' questions frenzy by relatives and friends. Come on.. Give me a break people.. It's not like I don't want to get married. My time will come okay.. Just be patient.. I know I am.. :) Holding on to my philosophy: Just do my best and God will do the rest. Amen! Who knows, this is the year I'll find the right person that God has been reserving for me. *wink*

Khosea's SPM result is coming out in a few days time. Read in his facebook post that he's having the influenza symptoms. Must have been the SPM result's fever.. lol Speaking of facebook, it was a pleasant surprise when I discovered that both my parents are now catching up with this facebooking fever. Most of my relatives are on facebook as well and we all agree on one particular thing - we acknowledge that my great-grandmother, Apu (grandmother in our Lun Bawang language) is our QUEEN. Long live Apu Beridang! Long live the Queen! Hehe..

Fuh.. that's is all folks (for today at least).. Till my next post. Adios!

God bless and may you continue to shine for Him.